As My Mind Wanders (Poem)

I wonder why 
one can feel the wind but not touch it, 
how one can dream with the eyes open,
still remember a song word by word
after a decade,

I wonder how
you can smile with a heart that's broken
Wait for someone 
who will never come back.
Lie to all with those eyes
never prone to decieving.

I wonder why
I fall in love easy,
Cannot remember the birthdays,
Mess things up, still not blame myself
Need a reason to be happy
but not for being sad.

I wonder why
you call me pretty when 
I just wake from my bed,
you call me strong
when there is no oxygen
running in my blood.
how you touch my soul
without touching me.

I wonder why
sometimes, I feel like a lost kid,
like I belong nowhere, 
like every way is a dead end,
I wonder what if
I'm the only one
who feels this way.

♣ BiRthDaYs & StUfF ♥

Here I am again. I am not sure how I felt about no more being a teenager when I turned 20, two days ago. Growing up was never my cup of tea. I am the one who is always expected to get naughty, childish and reckless at the weirdest hours of the day. I even got myself certified for my crazy streak when I gave up a large share of my pocket money to buy a basketball just to show it off at the basketball court, when I flipped out during a presentation and was  like "Listen to me even if I am talking sh*t"  and when I proposed a senior. I wonder if all this is a part of growing up. Talking about my birthday, I had the best birthday so far. 

I was pretty upset when the day before my birthday was a wreck. The lab exam and the viva did not go well. But on my birthday the luck lady did smile upon me 'cause the DS lab exam went awesome. My partner was already a pro. Having exams during your birthday is a bummer but I got to thank all those people who nevertheless made it so special for me. Getting a cake on your birthday is an expected thing in hostels but it never hurts to pretend that you are not expecting it. Well, I did expect it so I hung up on calls at midnight to feign a surprise when my roommates and friends brought the chocolate cake, a bunch of balloons into the room and sang "Happy Birthday" at the top of their voices. The birthday bumps was not my favorite part. I think it was a pretty good idea to bring the balloons along with the cake because I had condemned them to even touch my wall beforehand. So the balloons served as decoration stuff. I must say that the cake was delectable. To be honest,  I would have been a little disappointed if it wasn't a chocolate cake. The best part was the big Teddy bear that they gifted me. I remember telling them jokingly that I want a giant teddy for my birthday, so I was pretty damn excited carrying my big fat new teddy bear. Still searching for a name though. The birthday wishes kept pouring in all day long through calls and messages. It felt nice :) One of my good friends who is also my benchmate gifted me another present which was too adorable. It was a small idol of that alien "Jadoo" from the movie "Koi mil gaya". She said that she chose it because she thought that I'm out of the world. But I think that she actually meant that I'm an alien. :| Other gifts were great too but this one was really different. Although the party is still due but I think that I had an awesome birthday. Everyone on my "pretty-important-people" list wished me and the rest who did not wish me, well, they are not important to me. So don't bother. Really, I love birthdays, whether it's mine or friends'. You get to have cake, with the yelling and everything, the parties, the photo-sessions in the end. 

So I am going to wrap it up here. As my end term is approaching, the urge to write is growing since I will be spending most of the time studying in my room. Exams, bah!

Weird but Fun

♥ 50 THINGS THAT I LOVE ♥

1.  Chocolates  

2.  Movies

3.  Dance

4.  Music

5.  Rain

6.  Novels

7.  Nice Shoes

8.  Sketching

9.  Gifts

10. Travel

11.  Basketball

12.  Poetry

13.  Paper Planes & Boats

14.  Butterflies

15.  God

16.  Hairstyles

17.   Noodles

18.  Kittens and Pups

19.  Supernatural stuff

20.  Starry sky

21.  Surprises

22.  Late Night Calls

23.  Blogging

24.  Shooting Star

25.  Sunset by a Ocean

 26.  Make-up

27.  Wedding Gowns

28.  Compliments

29.  Zac Efron

30.  Secrets

31.  Rainbows

32.  Black Nailpaint

33.  A Good Conversation

34.  Shopping

35.  Firework

36.  Proposals

37.  Massage

38.  Old Photographs

39.  Getting letters

40.  Bracelets

41.   Jeans(Clothing)

42.   Tattoos

43.   Sleepovers

44.   Philosophies

45.   F.R.I.E.N.D.S

46.   Hugs

47.   Science

48.   Fashion

49.   Good Sense of Humor

50.   ME

♣ How I Decorated my WALL ♣

It had been so long since my wall looked empty, pale and weary. So I made up my mind and splashed my creativity on it to make it look less boring and I swear it was a lot of fun.
The portrait(can't really say) done with oil pastels on left is that of Cameron Diaz. Now do not judge this art because it was not supposed to look exactly like her. It is more of an abstract portrait made in just 20 minutes. Those two butterflies above it, look pretty, don't they? Those I made with the help of a video on Youtube. Youtube is my latest obsession these days.. With the super fast wifi, it is like my dream come true - watching videos on youtube without long bugging buffering. To its right, you can see a color printout of Avril Lavigne in my favorite pose. I had been looking out for big flashy posters but then dropped the idea because I was too lazy to look for that particular shop where they sell them. That could take up the whole wall as well.

Below it, is a quote on God. And my belief that he exists and will guide me in some or the other way to success and happiness in life.That tree in the centre is a demonstration that I do not suck at painting stuff. But I also used a bit of crayons to even it out. So I better stop bragging about it. I just needed something colorful to go with my wall and the tree seemed to be the easiest. To its right, is some funny quote/saying(whatever you can call it) to show the diversity in my thoughts though it is copied. Below the painting is another quote on love which I quite liked when I first read it on google. Love will always be the sweetest part of our lives so I guessed it should be a part of my wall too. And in the left, you can see a quote on life, cut out from black chart paper. It took me 45 minutes to cut out delicately each letter. It must have taken me 40 minutes, I guess. 

To its left, adjacent to it is a paper cut-out done beautifully by my friends and we had used that thingy for the Hostel freshers' but I managed to steal one for my room after the party was over. That thingy reminds me of my childhood, how I would play with one of those similar looking stuff running around like a mad man through the wind just to watch that thingy swirl. Then there is Taylor swift in the color printout (Bad quality, though) from the song "Love Story". I still remember what a big hit it was. Girls at my school couldn't stop singing it loudly in chorus and my friend had begged me ten times to watch its video. And the dress that she wore in the video was splendid. Taylor Swift and her fairy tales. In the extreme left, you can see another quote which is by Bob Moore to inspire me everyday. Because life is all about falls and rising up. This one will certainly keep me motivated. And small cut outs of a basketball and an apple complete my wall, I guess. Basketball is what I love and the apple looked appealing. So it took me two days to get over with this wall decoration task. Hope it doesn't look bad but I have given my audience pretty much to read when they pay a visit to my room :)

Cute and Quirky,