Here I am! Nothing like the gushing time washing away seasons. It has been long since I wrote down anything about everything that is been filling up the glass of my life. I was caught up in this web of lethargy and reluctance to sit down patiently and rattle my mind to type words out. Youtube has always been my favorite destination and google my second. To my amazement, today is one of those "Wake Up, Ana" days for I could gather myself to write ..
Today, I opened my still weary eyes to stumble upon the fact that the three years
of Engineering have already passed. It felt like untying the knots in my mind trying to recall where I spent all these three years. From what I could conjure was that some weekends were about shopping and eating out. While others were about Assignment deadlines or Exam prep days. These three years were a Rush-Fest. Rushing to the library to re-issue books, rushing to the department to submit assignments, rushing to the health centre for friends, rushing to the canteen for snacks on a phone call, rushing to friends' to borrow dresses/accessories for parties. I cannot recall the time when my mind felt blank. The time we call as "Soul-searching" moments. There were so many instances when I felt that keeping my mouth shut would have been the best alternative. There was just NO time to rescan the situations. God, I felt busy, in my mind, in my thoughts, in my words.
Now that I joggle my memory, I can recollect how these three years became a history. It was when I was making a greeting card for him, when I flew to Delhi alone for a networking championship, while preparing for the presentations(three of them) when I was waiting for him to take me on dates, while trying to find a better set of people to spend my time with, when I was wishing that things would go my way. The opportunities that I grabbed and the ones that slipped away from my hand. The time wasted on people who could never be entrusted with and the ones I overlooked who could do me good. The time spent on mugging up the subjects I despised, prompting answers and even assignments. Now that I look back, I am struck with awe at my restless self..
Last year of Engineering and I still continue to be a careless wreck. I still have not learnt how to tie a sari round myself, when to refrain myself from making an inappropriate joke at strangers, how to sell a lie, how to be at a place on time, how to be diplomatic when friends fight ;) , how to forgive people ad move on. Phew! So much left to learn and I am still like a kid craving all the pampering and affection. Only a miracle can save me from the things that I do and say. Time does fly away so fast :)
Grumpy and Reckless,
