I'm home. It's too hot here, like the sun is boiling with all its might and we sit inside our abode with all the perspiration. No matter what we start with, the scotching heat will drain you all of your spirit and strength. Today, I'm little bit out of energy. I don't remember what I dreamt last night. I'm trying to stick to a routine that will include activities which I had planned to do in this summer vacation. I'm reluctant to mention what I'm aiming for. Remember those days when we have a whole list of options on what we can do to kill time but we still just sit down like couch potato and do nothing, not even a single damn thing? Well, I'm not gone this paranoid as of now though there are reasons that I should be. Being home (here in Assam), it is like being disconnected from the world outside. It's more like living in a house that is found far from civilization, amongst forests. It's peaceful, quiet and still your brain shuts down at times. You can count this place among those where you can spend time soul-searching. But I'm confused what soul-searching really means. It sounds like some meditation that you do to achieve Zen and stuff or find what really makes you happy, the inner peace and blah blah. What do I need soul-searching for?
It feels like I'm watching television after a decade. Watching television in hostel never made me comfortable enough. When you know that there's always someone peering at the screen just over your shoulder, it kind of takes away the real joy of watching television. Hence I prefer watching television only at home where there's no one objecting over what I should or should not watch. Apart from that, the internet connection is not as slow as I assumed it to be which is pretty good news. Keeping aside the television and internet and coming to humans, my cousins are still the same- Noisy, brawlers of the highest order, little young women with sharp tongues. I doubt whether I was as chatty and loud when I was young. Now I'm definitely not. Besides that, you know how it is here? Here, you'll never need to set an alarm to get up early in the mornings. Your cousins wake up way too earlier and even start fighting that it'll be as clamorous as a battle that will awake you though that's not a good way to start a day. At my mother's place, it's my little cousin sister who'd wake up first and cry at the top of her voice that the whole house is bound to wake up instantly. I told ya', No need of setting Alarms! The one thing that did go out of my hand was my idea of turning into a vegan. I was very determined not to even touch chicken or fish but then I was familiarized with the very distasteful vegetable dishes that they serve us as food in hostel. They can only cook non-vegetarian dishes right. I was helpless. Earlier, Mom would make every veggie in a certain different way so that it would end up being my favorite dish but now no more homemade meals. It was hard to remain a vegan. Sigh. At home, I do prefer having as much of veggies because I know that my retreat to hostel will turn me into a non-vegan again. But I do miss that life too, my friends, that feeling of being on my own and being self-reliant. I hope my friends miss me too :)
Spooky and Sassy,
