♣ DiS Iz "MeEh" ♣

They say "If you want to be loved, you need to love yourself first". I consider it as a fact. More I tread the journey of "Discovering Me", deeper I fall in love with myself and I never wish to cease this journey since it makes a way for me to live gaily. Now is the time, I should better dedicate this exclusive post to the chosen one - Me ( I'm a braggart :D) I think this one is going to be as silly and unpredictable as I am and some of the misconceptions, my folks hold about me will dissolve after they go through this extract.

As a kid, I was always caught bashing up guys, brawling with friends for toys and eating. This was due to the impact, my brother (elder to me) wielded on me. I was best at imitating him, it was more like a habit. But I remember I always wanted to be as fearless and gutsy as he was and hence was a bit tomboyish and a lot quarrelsome. On the other hand, as a school kid, sincerity was in my soul. I never disregarded my teachers and was unexpectedly brilliant in academics. In eyes of teachers, I was a "good apple" but my parents always thought the other way since I am the only notorious and obstinate one in the family, the reason they would always take and continue to take my brother's side. I was beyond repair. he he ;)

I've grown up playing computer games with my bro, brawling(again) with my best buddies, listening to Westlife ( My favorite Boy Band) and wondering why some things never go my way? Though now I'm big enough (only seventeen:D) but I'm still a kid at heart who needs incessant pampering and a slight push every time to get me going. Just like a typical teen girl, even I crave for fun, compliments, love and attention. But pretending to be someone I'm not is definitely not my cup of tea. I have an aversion to people who conceal their devious intentions behind a facade. I believe that everyone should have a sense of dignity for it helps them to battle injustice. When it comes to food, I'm cold and greedy since I'm a food fanatic. Otherwise I'm quite caring and considerate:) I profess my own set of philosophies on life, love and luck which always end up putting others in a baffling state. For those, who still haven't figured out what I'm passionate about or wish to know - Guys! Dance is my passion! :) My besties are my angels, when I'm on rocks, they pull me out of blue. With my mood changing like ocean, only my friends can console me during emotional outbursts. For me, the toughest thing to do is to "lie". I can be honest to the point of cruelty but I cannot be untrue to anyone. I'm just a girl who loves to talk, laugh and wonder what happens next :P I've got so accustomed to the girl I see in the mirror every morning that I cannot take her sadness. Hence I always do things that make her(me) happy. I never yield to anyone but my heart. And When I'm gone I want people to remember as "The Lady of her will".

    I think I should stop bragging now and but I can't help it. I just love the way I am :D You can call this self-obsession or vanity. But it'll always stay :) Let my conclude by dedicating few lyrics of a song to "ME"

"A girl like me

Is just a lil' different from all the rest
And a girl like me
Never gonna settle for Second Best
Could it be a boy like you
That would give me anything
If I asked him to
To take all my dreams
And Make them true
Show me all the reasons that you
Ought to be with a girl like me
Just like me"

Cold and Curious,

Anne

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Song of the Day : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tG8T0IfBxlk

▒ ♦ Quote Of The Month ♦ ▒

- ♥ NeW ObSeSsIoN ♥ -

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It's funny how I end up getting bored with each little thing that I do. How I'm always trying to break walls and flee into a world that has no resemblance with the present one, getting restless every now and then, trying to evade monotony from my life. Basically I'm a person who craves for liberty in every sense. If I feel that I'm being suppressed by some unexpected circumstances, I go hysterical. And that's what I'm now going through - a state of hysteria! Half Yearly exams are approaching and I'm completely out of order. I'm literally dragging myself to the books that are left untouched for like eternity. Preparations are time-consuming, as they always are and I'm finding it tough to make time for writing, reading novels, sketching etc. I know I sound insane at the moment as one's concern should only be regarding the completion of the exam preparations, but I'm so awkward as I'm still more concerned about what's new on Youtube and saturday night movies. With my ever changing moods, Only God is the savior. I just hope, I get on with these exams real fast. So that I am once and again let free to retreat to my "own" world.

In last few weeks, I've come to learn a lot about people (basically my classmates) who I had thought are beyond my comprehension. But now I think they are not that hard to deal with. Like every typical class, even our class possesses a Newton, a drama queen, a clown and a Mr. Doubt and I don't know what "they" call me. *giggles* Some of them are too good to be in our class as it seems that they have already mastered science and every time they amaze me with their brilliant doubts. Some are always caught in their own trance during classes and which breaks only when the teacher steps out of the class. How the lectures hurled by the teachers are dodged by us. After all, we are still kids (not really) and we just love to have fun! If course books were as interesting as novels and comics, I swear I would have never ignored them like plague or preserve them like I do:)

People say that I'm self-obsessed and they get my vote on that. I always put myself first and I don't think it's improper to quote that. People often fail to judge the true "ME" and since I know myself better than anyone else, I love "ME" :)Well, I have another obsession too - "The Vampire Diaries", a bewitching television show I die for. Though It's not telecasted on Indian television but I get to see all its episodes on myriad websites. The show is breathtaking, with a lot of thrill, action, romance blended into one. You are bound to fall in love with every character in the show for they carry their unique charm throughout every episode. Since supernatural stuff always excite me, this show has been put in my favorites list. The storyline is about two brothers who happen to be vampires but have completely contrasting nature. The show is just too addictive, trust me on that! Here goes some pictures - 

♥ The Vampire Diaries ♥

♥ Elena Gilbert ♥

♥ Stefan Salvatore ♥

♥ Damon Salvatore ♥

  

- The Cast Of The Vampire Diaries -

So finally I've reached the end of this post. Hope to see you soon right after my exams. Till then, Take Care!!

Sweet and Lovable,

‬‬‬‬‬₪ Crazy -OR- Crazier ‬‬‬‬‬₪

It feels like days are flying off too fast or I'm consumed in activities that make it look so. But the good news is that I'm "Happy"  these days, Quite Happy! :) The happiness which is inexpressible at the moment. I'm baffled as to why I'm undergoing a fit of joy. Perhaps, the air is intoxicated or I'm a bit insane. I think this sense of felicity had lost amidst worldly stuff. Now that I can feel it, I find myself complete.

I wonder if this invasion of a sense of bliss is due the on-going vacation that permit me to watch movies, hang out with friends, stay awake late at nights and wake up quite late the following day. Not really! Or is this because I got to listen to some new and refreshing songs that blew my mind up or the new novel that is engrossing my mind and soul. Or is it the liberty of time that let me write for my blog every once in a while. But these things ain't the reason for my broad smile. There's something else!

Every now and then, it strikes me that I'm more productive when I'm alone. It's not justifiable associating the word "loneliness" with gloominess and melancholy alone. At times, solitude give us a room to reflect deeply on a tangled situation and carve a way out of it. It allows us to rediscover ourselves and even unveil an emotion tormenting us. It's true that creativity speaks through silence. Therefore I just love to spend time with myself doing nothing but letting my mind drift into the unknown.

I think I've come to fancy the concept of writing down my thoughts and feelings in a book or a diary. Last week, I found the dairy which I had misplaced a year ago. When I went through its pages, I was smiling unknowingly reminiscing the memories comprising emotions related to people who had influenced my life at that time. Memories of the past, some are sweet and others heart-wrenching. When I glanced at the poems in the diary, I burst out laughing because they were childish and quite incomprehensible. And I couldn't do anything but laugh at how silly and cranky I used to be! Lol! I think it's enough for today. I'll get back to you soon! Till then, take care! :)

Crazy and Insomniac,

 

♥ What's Love?! ♥

I don't know what's love!
but when you talk to me,
I drown in an ocean of ecstasy.
Your voice heals the affliction
of my heart,
And your words keep me
from falling apart...

I don't know what's love!
But when you look into my eyes,
It feels like I skipped a heartbeat.
And when you call me name,
I get lifted up by my feet....

I don't know what's love!
But this feeling rules me over
Day and night,
And when I'm with you,
Every color looks so bright...
 
I don't know what's love!
But in your eyes, I see
An innocence like no other,
If you are equivalent to my life,
I don't wish for another...

► Quote Of The Month ◄

¥ 5 Things I'm afraid of ¥

It is undeniable that we all hold some sort of fears that haunt us in some way or the other. I'm putting down my list of fears right here...

1. Reptiles

“Snakes, lizards, crocs- They all petrify me. There is this feeling of creepiness that penetrates my body whenever I happen to see them on television or anywhere. It's not only their deadly appearance that freaks me out but they are also venomous and can take life out of you. Even a tiger or panther looks magnificent though they are man-eaters! But reptiles, they have never fascinated me and I fear them badly! “ 

2. Death

“They say death is inevitable and I'm aware of it yet I want to live forever. Life can be disappointing and may look atrocious at times but I still don't wish to surrender to death. Because battling all adversities of life make a way for you to grow stronger mentally. The painful phase fades away some day or the other only when we hold on.On the other hand, Life is marvelous; it shows you winsome colors of love, faith and affection. Family, friends and gurus beautify your life. Since I love life more, I'm liable to hate death, hence fear it.” 

3. Ghosts

“Most of the people don't believe in their existence but I do. According to me, if good exists then so does evil. If God exists, Ghosts exist too. Science says that energy can neither be created nor be destroyed, in the same way, positive and negative energies are always balanced in nature. There's a field called paranormal studies that explains the phenomena of supernatural. This is the reason I believe not only in their existence but also fear them. I can confront any animal or person but I'd never want to encounter a ghost. Even their slightest thought gives me Goosebumps.”

4. Heartbreak

“I wish I was not as gullible as I am. I trust people so easily that when it breaks, it aches. Sometimes we just want people to be trustworthy so that it never strikes us that we are taking a chance conferring our trust upon them. And I've experienced this miserable feeling of breaking of trust. Therefore, I fear falling in love because I don't want to experience the same feeling again, because when a heart breaks, it's more afflictive. Hence I want just the right person for me, no one else!”

5. Morons

“I've wondered as to what is it that keeps me going even through toughest times and now I found the answer, it was always a positive attitude that helped me fight back most of the troubles. Even a smile can energize you effectively while resolving a problem. It's true that "one fails only when he stops trying" but this adage doesn't apply for morons (people who love to be sad). I've learnt that they are inconsolable. It's amazing how they start believing that failure is their fate. I seriously fear them the most. “ 

☻† Pursuit of Bliss †☻

Even through silence, I hear the clamor of emotions raging minds and hearts of people. In some, these emotions comprise the thrill of newly found love or compassion while in others, the emotions of grudge, anger, malice or revenge storming the hearts. Everyone is trying to settle issues that trouble them. Every now and then, we come across situations that are hard to tackle and we still strive hard to breakthrough. There are days when we long for a few words of inspiration that could help us ascend from doom.

They say life is never easy, it will make you fall and crawl through bonfires. But then, was this the motto with which God sent us on Earth? To suffer and bleed! Probably, No! We are here mainly because we are ought to be helping others to overcome their grief. But we are so engrossed in our own world, seeking compliments, avoiding criticism and becoming more rational day by day that we have forgotten to give. We find felicity in costly possessions, blaming others for our own mistakes and making others feel inferior before us. But the real happiness is felt by those who lend a helping hand to the needy, forgive people for their thousand mistakes and is always true to himself as well as others. People forget that love is stronger than hatred. Love will guide you to eternal bliss but hatred will take you nowhere.

It's ego that can certainly destroy you. People blindfolded with their big fat ego cannot take a word against them. In order to defend their ego, they end up forcing others to tears by constantly attacking their self esteem. Basically we need to understand that ego and dignity are two words apart. A sense of dignity prevents you from doing wrong. It can raise you higher in eyes of people. But ego lets you down everywhere and every time. They say God resides in each of us who help us to differentiate between right and wrong, then why do people tend to follow the path of evil. It's apparent that we have shut our eyes to morality.We strive for perfection and long for a life with things perfectly fitting into it.We have become so self-centered that tactlessness has become the order of the day. Virtues like honesty, benevolence, mercy, sympathy have lost their prudence in the present world. The father of our nation, Gandhi ji, the paragon of truth took so much of pain to make us familiar with the power of truth. But we all have turned a deaf ear to his spoken words. We feed our ego by breaking hearts and let our anger get the best of us. Man has undoubtedly lost his way in the midst of time.

I wonder if there still exist people who make mankind their business, consider honesty as the best policy, give up their comfort zone to reach to the sufferers, never disappoints a needy soul and try to obliterate his own flaws rather than pointing out faults in others. Such people do show me a ray of light through the darkest of gloom. With least apprehension,  I'm trying to cultivate such values of morality in me as well. I always stand for truth even when the majority supports a lie. I never utter a "No" when it comes to helping others. I forgive people easily and always make it a point that I don't offend anyone. I love to thrive with a hope that a little contribution by me might help in making the world a better place to live.

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Song of the Day : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DwrSVDRP-2Y&ob=av2e 

♣ She's No You ♣

 ♪  TAYLOR MANIA ♪

"When I first saw you, I felt an urge to make you Mine. Was it love?! Yes!, because after Fifteen, you tend to surrender your soul to the one in possession of your heart. I could see the Change  in me. You made me Crazier. All of a sudden, I grew Fearless to the possibilities of life. I wrote Our Song. I let go off the days when I would shed Teardrops On My Guitar for the nonchalance that had pierced through me. I know that You Belong With Me and I'm waiting for the moment when you would come on a White Horse and mark the beginning of this Love Story ♥ ...... "

It's amazing, how Taylor blend the words so ravishingly, for rendition of a song that , it enamors a soul. Through her songs, she forges an enigmatic world which appears like a fairy tale where love rules. Her song lyrics invite elation in hearts of people since the words chosen are so vernacular that one can relate their own love situations to these songs. I drift away to her melodies and her lilting voice adds further allure to her songs. Moreover, her music videos are able to hold you spellbound for days. One is certainly bound to fall in love after listening to her ultra-romantic songs. 

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♪ ALLURING AVRIL ♪

"I was once your Girlfriend. But eventually things got Complicated and before it could Hot up more, you planned My Happy Ending. I needed someone to Take Me Away from this Alone state of turbulence for I could see my hopes Falling Down and your Innocence fading away. When Nobody's Home, I longed for someone to say " I'm With You" as every bliss Slipped Away. When You're Gone, I realized, we were never meant to be Together. Perhaps He Wasn't the one. Tomorrow, if I Fall To Pieces again, I'll still not regret letting you go,I Will Be stronger...."

Avril, the Punk Queen has it all. Her emo style and gothic looks make her irrevocably magnetic. With her voice so musical and concerts so lively, she certainly steals away all the admiration. Most of her songs bring out the reality of life and each song sounds just so beautiful that one is liable to get addicted to them. Her flawless singing and boldness stand out.  Ever since I've seen the videos of her live concerts, I've become a great fan of her. Moreover her gorgeousness adds to her appeal. Avril is definitely my icon. 

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♪ RAVISHING RIHANNA ♪

"I never thought that A Girl Like Me would fall for you. But when we danced in the rain with no Umbrella protecting us from those flirty raindrops and you whispered in my ear "Te Amo", there was something inside me that screamed "SOS" for i was breathless. It was unbelievable but I knew Kisses Don't Lie and I embraced you, feeling your Hotness against my body. A music took over our souls and I beseeched you inaudibly "Please, Don't Stop The Music." I drowned in your love and could see the world Take A Bow. I promise you that I will never be Unfaithful and kiss you when We Ride. As this feeling is making me insane, I'm likely to say ," I Hate That I Love You!♥ "

Rihanna and her thrilling voice can you make go down on your knees.  That's the degree of charm, Rihanna possesses. She's been my favorite all the while. The girl can make you go gaga over her songs. I can go on humming them all day long. They sound so cool and refreshing every time I listen to them. Her ever changing looks are quite impressive. She's undoubtedly a stupendous singer who has sung some of the best songs. I wish I had a voice like her ^_^  with which I could have wooed everyone. Without her songs, my playlist looks dull and incomplete. She rocks to the core! 

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Song of the Day : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k2CR8wSmXNE

(: You're Still The One :)

Let me specify that this post is exclusively dedicated to my bestie "Mandira" who happens to be the Sweetest person on earth and unfortunately is stuck with me with chances of rescue that are nil :P ;) Any deviation from the topic should be pardoned. ;)

Ever since I've met her( which was 4 years ago), I've never felt being left out. Although she's a year younger than me, it's only her who can match my zest and zeal, who can really interpret my heart and soul, can lure a secret out of me, can break my silence, can make or ruin my day :P and console me through the hardest of times. At times, I feel that she knows me better than I do.Of all those pretences, fake sympathy, plastic smiles of all hypocrites around, the one thing that happened right was Mandira. Before her, none of my secrets can remain unrevealed for more than a second. Then either I burst into tears or laughter, only she can make me feel better and loved. The impact that she exerts on me is really astonishing, since it was because of her that I resolved to continue writing. She's always there to bring my feet back to ground and to burn away my misery. Our bond is accentuated not by the fact that we both are Assamese but it is due to the similarity of thoughts, opinions and also some creepy habits.;) A conversation with her sees no end and can go on for days and nights if not refrained by our parents or hunger. hehe! :)

Now let me write down what Mandira is all about!;P She's a bit innocent, clumsy, whacky, weird(So m I) :P and also cute, smart, diligent, confident, sporty, caring and responsible :P. She's crazy on Westlife(the band) and Jesse Mccartney who often give her butterflies as she had told me. We both are in love with SRK's movies<3. She loves doing maths and abhors Social science subject, implies She is intelligent but has a poor memory capacity:P. This girl sings in the school choir and steals away gold medals during athletic meets.O' Mandy, I hate you :) She's a teacher pet, I mean, she's her teachers' favourite and is always caught doing their work like yelling at the top of her voice, on her classmates or dictating answers to them. Poor Mandira! :P The must have been thousands of projects, we have made together. But I must say that the presentation of her projects and assignments can make you shiver with jealousy. She's awesome at it. I hate you, Mandy [2] :)

The one thing, she's annoyed with is her really small eyes(an attribute of Assamese as you people know). That's where I come into the picture, it's always me who lift her up. For It's pity, when you have gorgeous hair which gleam without fail all day long(make envy factor) and flawless-glowing-fair skin that people drool over and you moan over your tiny eyes that actually make you look cute  and adorable. And she needs to get this right in her broody head. Mandy, Stop being so selfish!!:P She's fond of eating  especially chocolates( every girl's fantasy;)),sleeping and music. she's specializing in multitasking since I recently had observed her listening to FM on her cell and doing maths.:P Nowadays, She's caught in a frenzy to compose poems as good as that of William Wordsworth:/. We definitely make a perfect combo of a typical capri and a saggi(our zodiac signs). Though our signs can never get along well in the skies but on earth, we make the best of friends.

The food that her mother cooks is my favorite but the food made by Mandy never climbs down my throat.:P I shouldn't have mentioned this since I'm no cook and haven't even tried cooking till now. My mom admonishes me for this one reason! :/ I can be found at Mandy's home anytime or every time. hehe! I call her house my second home, since aunt and uncle are very sweet and always appreciate me which is in contrast to my real home.:/. Her birthday is on 31st December(last day of the year) which makes it unforgettable and I always escape.hehe!! Ahh..this article will never come to a stop If i don't cease to write at this point. So now I should better close this topic of Mandira or she'll fly to cloud nine and I don't want that! LOL :P:)

Let's conclude by saying something someone else had already said. This goes for Mandy :

"They say it takes a minute 2 find a special person, an hour 2 appreciate them, a day 2 love them, but then an entire life 2 forget them!:)"

Lurv Yew, Mandy! :)

Dedicated to Mandira :  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hzm8SFGsd_I

* Color my world *

I'm back with a bang!! not certainly!;) ..Right now, there are millions of thoughts meandering through my mind which I would have loved to write down. But I'm a bit apprehensive as I don't intend to abandon my sleep tonight. So I'd pen down only a few.

When I was really small, there were guests pouring at my home, their wonted question to me used to be, "Hey kid! What do you want to become when you grow up?!" and I, without stressing my brain much, would blurt out a reply - "A doctor". Since everybody aspired to become a doctor, i joined the race as well. Now I agnised that becoming a doctor is definitely not my shot for even the sight of blood sends a chill down my spine. Although I always had yearned to be a healer of maladies, I'd like to cure a mortal emotionally and not by handing out pills that come with loads of side-effects. And as i grew up, the range of answers to the same question, uttered by me, to different people is staggering. The list goes like - Doctor, Engineer, I.A.S Officer, I.P.S Officer, Choreographer, Painter, Wrestler (sounds funny but it's true :D), Astronaut, Space Scientist, Singer, anything, everything.A blockbuster movie, documentary or a television show was good enough to alter my mindset and goal. Besides there were people guiding me to follow dreams, they had adorned. In fact, at that time, none of these dreams seemed out of my reach. But now, when I take a look around, I see my mates and peers who have improved themselves as really graceful dancers, phenomenal painters and everything I had once aimed for. In this span of time, they have developed their art and skills to accomplish their target. I wonder, if I still have time and opportunity to dig into my concealed potential that can illuminate my destiny. At the moment, the one thing that I'm certain of, is that my profession will be related to the world of computers since I can't part with my computer even for a day. Perhaps it was this boundless affection that compelled me to write a blog, a mere excuse to spend more time in front of my PC and explore its brilliance. ;) 

I've always marveled, how the world would have looked like without colors. Every color can be associated with a feeling or emotion. Initially, I was fantasized by the color blue. For me, blue signifies the color of ocean and sky. Ocean - carrying with it the depth of emotions like love, care and faith. Sky - with its stunning vastness reminding us of the limitless potential hidden within all of us. Blue used to be my fave in the past but now I feel that life has shown me myriad colors that I've come to fancy each one of them. Red is another one that fascinates me a lot. Red - the color of love, rage and also blood( trying to sound spooky). Red is undoubtedly the most attractive and seductive color. Its radiance is marvelous and bewitching. Recently, I've taken a strong liking to light-green color as well. The color has its own appeal. Green which signifies fertility in the form of greenery, reminds me of ravishing nature and its charm over the minds of poets and writers. Girls adore pink, so do I. It's the prettiest color of all. Another very alluring color is Black- the most dominant one! It's the color which stands for egoism and sometimes also for evil. Black is considered inauspicious to put on in our customs. I certainly feel that this color possesses a unique enticing power. On the other hand, the color white denotes purity and peace. White and black complement each other. The colors that I love to wear are blue, red, green, pink, black and white. But the color who has been holding me in a trance for a long time is violet which is considered to be the most stylish of all. Often it is said that violet resembles creativity. It's just my color. I'm so grateful to God that he has decked this world with colors so enchanting!! :) 

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Song of the Day : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K0K46C82v9o&ob=av3e

!!!--- Hilz4eva ---!!!

"Hilary Duff" - The Most Beautiful Woman I Ever Knew! Mah Idol.. Mah Favourite <3

^Awakened^ (P-o-e-m)

Never did I feel

So lost in this familiar world,

Like a wave of perplexity

Has swept across my sanity.

Every step lands me

In an intrigue of time

Pulling me inwards,

Into a state of hysteria.

My conscience, damaged,

By the blunders committed

In the unforgiving past.

Somehow managed to flee

Into the world of present.

But now I lie aloft

On a thin layer of solace

Dreaming my fantasies of all time

But to fulfill these yearnings,

I need to un-tighten my soul

From those clasps of time,

Rise from this level of abyss,

Fondle away every speck

Of hesitancy off my shoulders,

To make a stride

Into the world of cruel realities

At the same time, recovering

My self-esteem and conscience,

Erase those beliefs

That pull me down

And now I’m on my way

To Un-complicate LIFE…. 
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Song of the Day : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KpmSHb-aRB0

* And L-i-f-e Goes On... *

Eventually, from "nobody" I turned into "somebody". I'm dignified as the "Prefect" of the school (exaggerated). Though I'm naive to the duties and responsibilities of a prefect but I think I'd make good prefect :) since I never fear responsibilities. There are many(talking about classmates) who have begun to hold grudge against me as they couldn't make it and I guessed it from the hateful glances that they poured on me. Ignoring their indecency, I'm determined to fulfill my duties with heart and soul. And it feels awesome to know that you're contributing a part of yourself for the betterment of the school. The best thing is that although our English teacher scarcely know me, she recommended me for the post. Rest of the appointees were all chosen by their ex-class teachers. I'm highly obliged by her generosity.

As the pages of my life are turning over, I'm struggling hard to find the apt words to describe it. At the moment, it's messy. I've joined IIT coaching classes which will commence from the next week onwards. With the pressure of studies building up, I guess I'd really need to spend some time doing meditation to avoid any sort of stress. But I think It's going to be a lot exciting because I love to make new friends and enemies too. (kidding). After the post tenth holidays, I'm so inured to this joblessness that I doubt will I be able to get out of the intrigue once I enter it. But I know I'll manage like I always do. I'm both physically and mentally strong. At least, I think so:) Of course you cannot consider a girl, who has fallen badly from her bicycle thrice and still rides it, to be weak.:P

Yesterday, It struck me that I have developed an adhesion for our school computer lab. Is it because of the AC which makes us all feel cozy and and heavenly or the computers with net facility or our computer sir and that white board on which he draws all sorts of cumbersome diagrams to set the concept right in our broody heads. I've no idea! In computers, the theory part rattles our heads massively but the practicals are a cause for it's popularity amongst the students. There is a certain feeling of dignity that invade us every time we enter the computer lab. Mainly because only we(my class) possess the authority of working on the computers or studying the subject sitting in the lab since we are the ones who have specially opted for the subject, computer science. Besides When I study the subject, I feel as if I'm getting a grand opportunity to learn about my own computer.

 Lately, I befriended two of the craziest girls of my school and fortunately they are my classmates- Snigdha and Shravya. These girls are always upto something mischievous. They are brainy and yet so much fun to be with. I truly appreciate every single moment I spend with them. They are so much full of life that they can drive anyone crazy. I've come across so many morons that I certainly needed someone like them, to add trills and frills to my monotonous and dull life. I just love their frivolous attitude and jolly nature. They are highly infectious and no one can match their spirit. One can get high in their company but cannot be put off when they are around.

Though life seems a fuss at times but I still love it:)

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Song of the Day : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7f3GjrwlzY

|- Rejection Overruled -|

Right when my hopes were too high, i had to bite the dust. In spite of speaking so well, the post of discipline captain slipped off my hand. It was our english subject teacher who was responsible for appointing the school captains and till yesterday I was being constantly reassured that I'm to be the discipline captain. But God knows why and how, at the last moment, she felt a need to consult other teachers too who patently prompted their ex-students to stand for the school captaincy posts. So naturally, I had to settle with no post. Though I had the potential, the desire, the sincerity, the fire in me, they just neglected it, neatly laying forward two of the thinnest excuses - I'm new to the school and I've opted for science and cannot afford to miss science classes. But they did selected some as appointees from my section who were specially summoned just because they have been in the school for a longer duration. But I reason where were these students when the first time, selections were being conducted i.e when we were asked to prepare a speech. Alas! It was unfair on their part.Perhaps what happened was all destined and I loath the fact that destiny cannot be repealed. I'm using the word "destiny" to express my helplessness in this situation.

I was put off when I came to know the results, but then the classes of maths and physics held today, saved my day. We had the most hilarious sessions today. O' Gracious! Maths can be real fun at times especially when teachers in an attempt to make students comprehend the concept, hurl the absurdest and whackiest examples and then the whole class bursts into laughter. These are some momentary laughs that actually count, since they sow the seeds of unity among the students. And yes! A hearty laugh can release all your tensions. I experienced it today:)

So far, I've realized that some of the girls of our class certainly need attitude adjustment. They portray themselves as happy flocks of people but bear grudge against one another. Ah! they'll have a nice and sweet talk with you to get their job done. how mean is that!? Now I'm not uttering all this because it had happened to me but on the basis of what I have observed. They often try to crack the funniest jokes ever and end up losing their dignity in my eyes. What they certainly need to learn is to respect others. If you are a good speaker, you must learn to be a good listener too. Maybe I've mistaken them but I'll try to bring out their inner self and then judge them and in fact, I'll have to be judgmental in order to make everlasting friends.

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Song of the Day :: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NGXYAJoDWCk&feature=avmsc2

I L-u-v Physics! ;)

Woah! Either Physics is truly interesting or our physics sir has influenced our minds conspicuously that we have literally begun to love this subject. The first lesson had certainly scared us out of our wits as it comprises the names of all the prominent scientists and their phenomenal inventions or discoveries which are to be learned for the exams. Since the first lesson consists of myriad discoveries of various scientists, our physics sir had told us to read it on our own. The bomb dropped yesterday when our physics sir had brought with him Mcq test papers which were to be decorated by us - "It Was A Surprise Test". Thirty questions and four tantalizing options for each Q. I could feel my face perspiring at its fullest. It was apparent that no one had even gone through that lesson again. So the aftermath was quite predictable. No one could cross the score of 15\30.Well, I got 14 and was still proud of myself that atleast I was sure of some of my answers.Just kidding! It was rather quite embarrassing.But due to the test, we came to know some of the most interesting facts like the scientist, Michael Faraday had made 16401 discoveries--- Isn't that stupendous!! and Madam Marie Curie won Nobel Prize twice in the field of physics and chemistry:).

            
Anyways, being pcm students, we end up falling in love with these subjects.The deeper we probe them, crispier we find them. But I must mention my physics teacher here. He has a disposition of an angel. He never scolds us even when we sometimes find it tough to zip our babbling mouth. His way of teaching is remarkable. Though our computer science sir and chemistry sir are also laudable. But we are more inclined to our Physics sir! :) Our english ma'am is the frankest teacher I've ever come across. By the way she reminds me of my ex maths teacher, Shanmugam ma'am. She's quick in whatever she does which is very impressive.

Now let's talk about my new classmates. Boys have made a habit of flocking the school if any of our subject teacher delays coming to the class. Girls get up from their place and cluster around a single bench and begin gossiping, actually twittering. Well, our class is flooded with boys, Girls are only eleven and the strength of the class has already hit the half century. Majority of girls have opt for commerce and bpc, which make me feel disgusted as to why girls ignore the subject, maths like the plague. Then there are these two girls who sit in the bench behind me whom i call my good friends, possess a very silly habit of throwing cheesy comments at each and every thing. I sort of despise their cynical attitude and when they go beyond a certain limit, I feel like yelling "Stop It, Guys!" But i guess that would create a very awkward situation for all three of us. So to avoid that, i swallow my wrath several times. Otherwise once I start off, no one is spared. :P

Yesterday I had golgappas with my friends after ages. They were delectable.:) Then we meandered the streets of my colony, shared our felicity and agony about the assignments that we get after every two days and the homework that suck out the enjoyment from our lives, then pulled one another's leg which is customary and finally made way to our houses. It was nice seeing a friend after so long.(talking about Sahitya) I miss her. :(

So, I'm contesting for the post of school discipline captain. We had to deliver a short speech today on what all we'll do if we are selected for the posts we have applied. No one was prepared as such, since we were to be interviewed on monday. But each of us tried hard to persuade the teachers though some of them lacked the power of speech. All my classmates affirm that I'm the most deserving candidate but I just hope that only positive comes out of it. Results will be declared on monday. If i don't get this post, I'll be disheartened.:( Let the things work out their way, I'm just keeping my fingers crossed! ^_^
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 Song of the day : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4nCx3lb1f8