!Exam Tension!

Exams <--I wish they would have never come into existence. Since they've arrived on this earth, we've been pushed into that pit of suffering. This particular word is good enough to give us goosebumps! Exams and then the dreadul results, Sometimes I feel our lives have been reduced to only these two words.

I think class tests are better than those backbreaking exams when we are forced to wake up early to finish our preparation for exams. Exam days are really tiring. We cannot go out, play freely or watch new movies during exams. I mostly do well in exams but I really don't like the idea of getting up early in the morning or sleeping late at night just to make sure that I get good grades. Sometimes it's just the capacity of a child, how much he can remember or how faster he grasps the lessons. So It's not fair to judge a child on the basis of his grades. Performing well in Academics is important but what is more important is the inner development of a child, his perception of the world, sense of logic and his creativity. I try hard to recall who do i really consider my favourite teacher in my school. But finally I know that I've learnt most of the things by observing the things around me and therefore I agree that observation is the best teacher. Life can also be a good teacher if you really want to learn from it and find the answers to it's questions.

But exams, I'm truly fed up of them. The no. of exams I've given infact we've given is uncountable. Besides pressure from the teachers and parents sometimes worsen our life. If we don't perform well in one exam, people assure that we'll do better in next but will this series exams ever come to an end!? As long as we do quite well in exams, everyone's happy but as our grades begin to fall, parents put more restrictions on our leisure activites. I don't know why parents and teachers expect so much from us despite knowing that we are not old enough to carry their burden of great expectations. Failure is a part of life and there's nothing wrong in making mistakes, still they want us to be perfect, Do everything right. But even we have a little world of our own, comprising friends, dreams, music, dance and fun. We cannot become someone who we are not. We love to be ourselves. After all everyone is unique. So I'm really against exams which make our life miserable.

DiS Iz ~*L-i-f-e*~!

What is life!?..I often wonder! I've always learnt that even if you're drained, life will never wait for you, it goes on. If you fall down, you must get up before life slips out of your hand. Life..will make you laugh, it'll make you cry. If one yearns for happiness, he should also be ready to accept gloom. All we need to live life is right perception or optimism.

My life is incomprehensible. I never get what I want but I get all that I don't need. I laugh a lot. Even in the worst situations, you'll see me smiling. I don't know why I'm like this..perhaps because somewhere down my heart,I believe that at last, things will definitely fall in my favor and that's because of my positive attitude or vanity,whatever you call it. I always put my dignity first and I often listen to my heart rather than brain. But one thing I've learnt is that don't expect too much from your life for it will not always go your way, it'll take its own course. I never intend to hurt people but I simply cannot lie but I always try to convey the truth in the gentlest way. I've learnt that we must not always consider the looks of a person, looks can betray you but a beautiful heart will never. Every person has certain shortcomings and good qualities and we must try to forget his/her flaws and accept them for no one is perfect in this universe. I believe that we must not spend our life but live it to the fullest extent because tomorrow is never certain. Always do good things, thank people for their greatness, say sorry when you make a mistake, give presents to your family and friends and your life will become much simpler. Love yourself because you know no one can ever be like you. If you're not honest to others, atleast be honest to yourself. Learn from your mistakes and always try to be a good human.Atlast I would like to dedicate a few lines of a song to "me" :)

I'm a new soul, I came to this strange world.

Hoping I could learn a bit 'bout, how to give and take,

But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear.

Finding myself making every possible mistake!:)

My Artwork!

Indira Gandhi

I've drawn it recently for the school magazine.

I made it when I was in 6th grade.

I drew it last year..

Has simply tore it from my last year's drawing notebook :)

I made this when I was a 6th grader..

My P-o-e-m-s !(4)

MY NEW NEIGHBOUR
Days and nights have turned into hell
For peace and harmony, I still strive
I never hear my own house doorbell
Since my new neighbour has arrived.

His music system is always put on
Making ear-deafening noise every moment
To raise the hell, that guy is born
He entered my world like a torment.

Rock, hard-metal and hip hop
To stop it, what would he take?!?
As I feel like calling up a cop
For he gives me a severe headache.

When I gaze through his window
I see his slim dancing figure
I feel like taking my gun
And ask him to leave
Before I pull its trigger,

He has become a nightmare
Every night he makes me shriek
This nonsense I can no longer bear
I am fed up of this music freak.

I only long for peace
Have mercy on me, God!!
Send somewhere this beast
Or I would change my abode.

LONELINESS
I stand still near my window
See faces heading their way
To me, no heed they show
No minute makes me gay
Petrifying silence creeping inside me
Stealing my life, my spirit away
Making me insane, I could not flee
I sit on the stairs and say
Oh mighty! why am I alone ?!?
Only silence I can wear
This heart has altered into a stone
This solitude I can no longer bear
Unknown life, unknown presence
Slowly killing me inside
No living can feel my essence
Darkness only makes me terrified
Broken are the hopes and dreams
Only stones await in my way
Lips are sealed but my soul screams
My heart sinks at the closing day
Eyes are seeking for love and affection
Someone who could return my smile
Who could show me a new direction
Someone who would walk with me thousand miles
My soul is imprisoned by these four walls
Can’t see a single ray of light
At this, my last hope falls
These unbreakable bonds hold me tight
A long road lies ahead of me
But my legs are giving up today
These invisible ties don’t let me free
Doom and despair always stay
Sun has drown in the ocean
So are my aspirations in the dark
Unable to feel wind in motion
Needles of the clock appear to bark
For love and care, I still long
But roots of silence already grew
Today I am singing a melancholy song
For I know, dreams never come true..

DREAMS
World appears chocolaty as ever
Full of milk and creams
People look sweet as honey
In my world of dreams.

I see angels in my dreams
Painting the sky with rainbow
Casting spell on everything
Astounding miracles they show.

Once I saw Santa Claus
Screaming my name with joy
Heading towards my with a smile
Carrying my most favorite toy.

I saw aliens in my dream
Uttering in a strange accent
Disappeared in a split of second
I wondered where they went.

Superman too appeared in my dream
Carrying me in the blue sky
Was joyous and happy to be
With the most happening guy.

I saw the future in my dream
Where everything was machine
Robots too over the whole world
Humans could no longer be seen.

Dreams are truly fantasy lands
Make me fresh and gay
Every night seems an adventure
Without them, I cannot stay.

my P-o-e-m-s !(3)

RAIN
watching out through the window
I feel a pain, which never goes
Suddenly, sky goes dark before my eyes
And a tear rolling down my cheek dries.

stormy weather, all I could feel
wind striking my face with force
could not resist it without a shield.
Lightning appears, a cloud roars.

What kind of weather is it?
Storming my feelings and thoughts
Or a new hope that is lit !?!
My mind was in tight knots.

I could feel droplets of rain,
Falling on my face with a tickle.
Washing away all enduring pain,
Wish to hold this minute ,fickle.

I open a secret door of dreams
And walk out in this flirty rain,
At a distance, I see running streams,
Reminds me that life goes on
Even if I am drained.

I look up to see a clear way,
A path with dreams and aspirations
water drained my agony away
I tread gradually without hesitation.

Now the World appears a fairyland
where good wins and evil fails,
Now there’s someone to hold my hand
someone to write me mails.

The rain stops but my life begins
I can see a ravishing tomorrow,
Happy and fruitful season of springs
A life without regret and sorrow.

Happiness knocked at my door
As it found the way to my home,
All my hopes have started to sour

my keen eyes and heart roam.

I remember the day when it rained,
Everywhere there was strife,
I remember how I changed,
And how the rain changed my life.
That day I picked up my shattered dreams
and started to knit

I realized Life has many colours.
Felicity and grief are a major part of it.
Life should be lived for several reasons
For it is like a cycle of seasons.
If you give up, you're a mere begineer

He who befriends it, is the real winner.

A LONELY TREE
A huge tree catches my sight
Standing tall in this dark horrible night.
No leaves, all have dried,
Another storm, it cannot abide

It was full of life once
Prided himself with loads of fruits
Leaves wore green splendor
Stood firm with his strong roots

Used to offer its wealth to old
Laughter and joy to small children
Shade mesmerized weary travelers
Pain and sorrow it had none

Seasons spent, years passed away
The tree was lost in its glory
Not aware of the future crisis,
Misery ruled over slowly

Rain refused to come down
Water in rivers and lakes dried
Sky turned purple with no cloud
Humans, animals, all cried

Their cries were unheard
They longed for food and water
Land masses turned barren
Life span of people were cut shorter

The tree also cried in grief
All his leaves fully dried
his green splendour faded away
for Its youth and beauty also died.

Some people left the place
Some could not struggle death
The tree was left behind
Solitude took away his breath

he, too desired to leave the spot
but soil defied when he tried
was shattered at his failure
and incapability to make a stride.

Now he is alone and defeated
Standing naked in this dark night
Frightened of the beauty of light
For darkness has chased him tight

Loneliness is his only mate
As he’s unable to fight his fate
He cries silently with a heavy breath
He has given up his hopes
And Is ready to accept death.

I’LL FOLLOW YOU
In the midst of broken dreams
Where hope do not wake up
And tears do not dry
Don’t panic, I’ll follow you
show you a spark of light.

if merciless summer rules
Dreams get frozen
by dreadful, fatal winter
spring never gazes at you
but I’ll follow you forever
show you rainbow in blue.

When there is an eclipse
Of love and trust
Doors of affection shut
Devil inside you cries
Don’t be upset, I’ll follow you
vanish every tear of your eyes

if triumph takes you
to the flight of vanity
you don’t hear anything
but only your sound
I’ll follow you and
Land you safely on the ground.

When each minute is full
of felicity and joy
and You dread the grief
Of the next moment
Don’t worry, I’ll follow you
Even amidst terrible torment.

Give me your problems
I’d alter them to solutions
Give me your hatred
I’d turn it into love
I’ll follow you each moment
Until the end of the universe.

If you’d see in your heart
You’d feel that we are not apart
I am your shadow in the dark
Existing with an unseen mark
Even if this world turns new
I’ll never hesitate to follow you.

We’ll be forever together
No force in this world can cease us
You are with me each moment
I am the almighty JESUS.

My P-o-e-m-s !(2)

A FRESH FERVOUR
those irresistible alluring eyes,
with a tempting smile on his face.
seemed impossible to me,
to neglect him in any case.

he walks in through my eyes,
plays the strings of my mind.
makes everyday beautiful with,
the fragrance he leaves behind.

dreams always invite him,
to tease me as he wills,
after so many years i believed,
cuteness of a face kills.

i lose all my senses,
when his gaze strikes mine,
a feeling that arises within,
is sweeter than the taste of wine.

my body trembles like thunder,
with his every single touch.
when my eyes loose his view,
why do I miss you so much?!

i frame a dream of us together,
watching the sunset on the shore.
with my head leaning on his shoulder,
i feel warmer than before.

these raindrops now appear romantic,
touch me as if they are kissing.
and he is indeed a brilliant thief,
because my heart is missing.

BACK TO ME
Moving along with so many
Things in life,
One day, I just realized
What would it be like,
If you were in my life??
The days would have
Become so long
And nights as short,
But I was forced back
To the ground,
My feelings came to a halt.
When I saw you with
Someone I hate,
I just cried at my fate,
I couldn’t do anything
But wait,
For the day you would
Come back to me,
Hold me in your arms
And never set me free.
That day, I’ll weep,
Not in gloom
But in happiness
Once again I’ll bloom,
In joy of getting you
Back in my life
Back in my world
But these dreams
Start turning blurred.
For I still
See you with someone
I hate
But I still got to wait
Till you see my love
For you, in my eyes
Which was once
Concealed with lies.
For I want you back
In my life
And I’ll wait for you
Till the day I survive.

BETRAYAL
Some words couldn’t be expressed
Some feelings stayed unknown
For I still got to solve
Some questions on my own.
As to why you left my hand
Left me alone in the darkness of doom
Your hefty lies I couldn’t stand
My hopes burst with a boom.

My desires, you always ignored
Shouted at my tiniest mistake
A little happiness you couldn’t afford
Our love was on the last stake.

I wondered why you behaved
Like an uncaring unfeeling husband
Couldn’t walk on the path I paved
Your broken promises I couldn’t mend.

Why you laughed at my tears
With my emotions, you played games
Your awful tongue hurt my ears
My dreams were set ablaze in flames.

My true love you betrayed
My love test you couldn’t pass
But I walked on the path you laid
Which was full of broken glass.

Does your love exist no more?
For me now you don’t care?
Or was it fake love that you wore?
From the beginning was it even there?

The day you walked out of the door
I stood still without a noise
In the deadly silence, not a single roar
For being apart was your choice.

Many years hence when I see the coast
Your unforgotten love makes me cry
For I still love you the most
I’ll wait for you till the day I die…

My P-o-e-m-s !(1)

MEMORIES
thousands of memories of a kind,
are embedded in my heart and mind,
the time that's gone is called the past,
but why do memories always last.

i try to recall my happiest memories,
think of the days with my best friend.
when we used to play and climb trees,
those faint memories i try to mend.

i try to recall the days with my mother,
when we would play hide and seek.
i adored her more than my elder brother,
when she would trace a kiss upon my cheek.

i try to recall the days of my school,
when we used to agitate our teachers,
in front of seniors, we tried to act cool,
i terms of studies, we, the laziest creatures.

i still remember the oldest memories of mine,
when i used to play with my little toys,
barbie dolls and other stuff that shine,
cars and trucks that make terrible noise.

when i recollect these memories,
overflowing with tears, i laugh as well as i cry,
because I've realised that the time is enduring.
cannot turn it back even if i try.

time cannot be erased or ceased.
like occurring of wretched dusk or beautiful dawn.
but memories stay forever in our heart,
even if my tears take time to dry out,
the time doesn't wait and goes on.

PARENTS
the love of parent for their young one,
would weigh more than millions of tonnes.
i forget my pain with their single touch,
why do parents love us so much??

they see dreams through my eyes,
when I fall, they help me to rise.
they endure the pain i can't stand,
lead my way with hand in hand.

they wipe away my tears as I cry,
give me the happiness one cannot buy.
when I’m hurt they feel the pain,
cover my head when clouds rain.

the love and affection they show,
is as wide as sky and rivers that flow.
they teach me to never lie,
stand by the truth till you die.

when this world hides away from me,
the beauty of people they make me see.
when I’m distraught, upset and full of sorrow,
they make me foresee a brighter tomorrow.

in their eyes, I’m still small like a doll,
they come running when this heart gives a call.
they nourish me as if I’m a baby or a child,
but find it tough to cool me down as i go wild.

without them life is like a garden without a gardener.
sun without sunshine, stars without moon.
taking birth in their arms is more like a boon.
they are me destiny, they are my fate.
they are my god for they are truly great.

EYES

eyes are like plane mirrors,
reflect what is hidden within,
a lovely and a sweet secret,
or agony and guilt of a sin??

when i see the eyes of people,
their eyes revealed their concealed emotion
sometimes filled with huge delight,
sometimes with excessive frustration.

when eyes of a person twinkle,
a good new is delivered for sure.
but when they overflow with tears,
an anguish persists without a cure.

when these lips commit a lie,
the eyes reveal the veiled truth,
for eyes are not subjects of a ruler,
they stand by themselves in sooth.

when our they catch an incredulous sight,
inside our heart, great excitement lies.
these eyes widen up with massive curiosity,
exhilaration is also shown in our eyes

eyes can neither hide nor lie.
cannot even see a scary sight.
when the heart beats faster that usual,
they tend to shut themselves tight.

eyes show excitement, joy, fear and fury,
the different emotions of a man.
cannot conceal these feelings with his eyes opened,
only by closing these eyes, one can.

WHAT MAKES ME DIFFERENT!
the world is running too fast,
everyone move with their on pace.
but i cease to watch people go, not bothered
if i come last in this fussy race.
that's what makes me different!

i enlighten a candle of happiness,
when the last hope of a man dies.
when there is doom and despair all around,
i instill a light of hope in his eyes.
that's what makes me different!

people hold grudge against me,
so often they criticize,
but i accept it with a sizzling spirit,
by trying to avoid mistakes and act wise.
that's what makes me different!

the external beauty of a man is admired,
no matter what lies within,
but i admire a mortal with a golden heart,
a soul without a single sin.
that's what makes me different!

people read books, watch movies,
paint objects in their pastime.
but i sit down with different people,
and try to read their fascinating mind.
that's what makes me different!

there are good times as well as bad times,
man fears to face a sad season,
but I'm not afraid of any situation.
for i know, everything happens for a good reason.
that's what makes me different!

People take birth in this world,
To live merrily and die happily like a tree.
but I'm here with a different purpose,
I'm here to leave a mark in the history.
so i got to be different!!

Forever As One!

It's really hard to explain..when people become friends and consequently best friends! I've come across countless people, have befriended many but there are only some who could reach to my heart, touch my soul, interpret even my silence and perhaps therefore I call them my best friends. Without them, my life would have been dreary sand. My Best friends, with whom I can share each little secret of mine, can cry on their shoulders and can count on them forever. Now that they are a part of my life, I cannot imagine myself without them. But there's only one thing I'm afraid of - Time, for I know that it can change people but I just hope that time doesn't come between me and my best friends. Because now I bear an animosity for loneliness. There are 3 people who hold a crucial place in my life and you can call them my best friends - Sahitya, Mandira and Pushpa.

Sahitya, she's a bit crazy and I'm not, but i think we make the best pair of best friends. Probably because of the trust and love that bind us. We have different likes and dislikes and sometimes she even get on my nerves but still I admit that I cannot live without her.

Mandira, the innocent mortal. I think she's really cute and at the same time gullible, the most helpful person I've ever seen in my life. Sometimes she acts silly and I think that's what I like about her. Though she's a year younger than me, I feel that she knows me better than I do.

Pushpa, Even she's a saggi!. Therefore we share a lot of common interests. We both like to collect varities of stuff, we both to love to give presents to others. She is the sweetest person I've ever come across. She can be a little domineering when you act carelessly and that's what she does when i go wrong somewhere.

Start Of Something New!

Finally, I've decided to write "MY" blog to pen down my thoughts and activites. Since this is the first day of the year 2010, this couldn't have been a better day to start with. I think it's really going to be a wonderful experience for me.